if this has been found by anyone that its more than likley i am dead. ive never seen myself living past 30, i think ill prolly kill myself if i dont die before than. sometimes i find reasons for life, but i still feel hollow inside. i dont know who i am, and maybe that because im still young, im only sixteen, but in seventeen in a month, i go for my driving test in 5 weeks, im so new to this newfound world of freedom and i hardly know what to do with myself, if im already this lost than how will i cope with adult life. I want freedom and i want out of that house but im affraid of falling into the abyse of a 9-5 office job life, i want stability but i want wonder, i crave adventure but i want it to be known. i dont really know what i want from this life and it petrefies me the thought of being perceived by others is angonizing but fear of being forgotten hauntes me. it all seems to complex to put into words because i truly dont know my place in this world.